A Lizard of Unusual Size

prraow.

Sun, 09 Aug 2009 16:27:35 GMT

I've come to the conclusion that the guys that actually wanna listen to what I have to say are not the guys that are my age. :/ All my best guy friends are at least a few years older than me. Which is fine, but I'm annoyed because when I get back to school I'll have to go back to dealing with boys that have NO attention span, that don't even care about what I'm saying. Ugh. No wonder I haven't got a boyfriend.

Well, Junior year starts tomorrow, and I can't say I'm all that excited anymore. After going to open house, I didn't see anyone new that I was interested in, and that's depressing. Just the same old faces from last years honors classes, some annoying and some friends. It's great that I have friends in every class, but I'd wanted to make some more, you know? At least I'll probably be able to do that in computer programming once I switch into that. That's the only thing I'm excited aboot. :)

And in other news, I bought a plant for my desk. And I've been trying to plan a compost heap in my backyard.

cosplay halp

Mon, 27 Jul 2009 22:40:38 GMT

For my teeny local comicon in January, I plan to dress up as a Spider Splicer from Bioshock. (Because I like to do things way after everyone else does I guess)

BUT even if you don't know what that is, you can still help me! I found a near-perfect dress at my Goodwill (it just doesn't have long sleeves, but I'm happy about that, because that means I don't have to sweat a lot!), and ripped it up accordingly. My problem: It looks like Tinkerbell.

It's not as blue as it looks in these pics, it's actually quite green.

This is how it's supposed to look:

So you kinda see my dilemma. I've seen other Spider Splicers do this type thing:

So idk how to make it look better. Of course, my pics are before I've pinned on the rose and made it sufficiently dirty etc

In other news, been looking up colleges and shit. Also downloading C++ right now so I can cry deeply at how much I fail.

Sunny Cali

Wed, 22 Jul 2009 19:41:49 GMT

I'm on the first day of our vacation in California. We just went to the beach, and now we're about to head to my Uncle Tom's house, two hours away. God, those waves kicked my ass. Much stronger than I'm used to :( I got sand burn on one of my knees. They kind of scared me, but hopefully next time we go, in a few days, I'll have the balls to go in again. And CONQUER.

It's really nice here though, the weather is just gorgeous; it's much better than AZ atm, where it's a million degrees hotter and also monsoon season. (Although I love monsoon season - I heard the loudest thunder in my life the night before we left!)

Tomorrow we're going to Universal Studios, then after that a whole day at the beach. Then Saturday we're going to Little Tokyo and a car museum. :D

I've been trying to stop lurking and commenting more on you guys, but since I'm on vacation that probably won't be happening :U

shite

Wed, 01 Jul 2009 10:01:17 GMT

Well, I've been doing well for myself this summer, I think! I love my job very much, and it's pretty much the only reason I leave the house (lucky for me, I've been getting more hours :D). Still playing Left 4 Dead insanely much, but today I got ~THE 'WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO PROVE?' ACHIEVEMENT~ for beating all campaigns on expert. I feel so immensely badass, and it was only 35G. Whatever. Four more achievements to go, then I will be done with that game forever. Matthew's gonna be so pissed that I did it without him, it will be glorious.

But anyway, back to stuff. Today I got 'borrowed' to a store in Scottsdale, which was a good 20 minutes from my house, but that was ok I guess. Scottsdale is a really snooty town, and the mall this EB Games was in was EFFING HUGE and I got lost, but I had a fantastic time. It was supposed to be me and a kid named Chris on shift, but Frank stayed after his shift because we were having so much fun. I think we had 3 customers, and I probably did a half hour's worth of work. In five hours. It was soooo much different than my normal store - we're workaholics there.

It was so laid back though! And my god, my stomach hurt from laughing once I got home. We chatted about video games and Family Guy mostly, but man those guys were funny. We're planning to have a party where we just play MGS4 all night, which I am IMMENSELY excited about, since I've been dying to play that game forever. My mom is hesitant to let me chill with some random dudes, but they seem really harmless. In fact, I felt a little ostracized for my age. Chris is 19 and Frank is 21, so they were like "oh shit you're a little kid!" and were acting like they couldn't hang out with me because I was 16. idc, yo.

What else is going on? Not much. I bought CoD4:MW a few days ago, but I think I'll play it after I'm finished being obsessed with L4D achievements. I also need to read my summer reading books but Jane Eyre is all bleh and I am preoccupied with gaming.

D:

Wed, 17 Jun 2009 04:49:19 GMT

I've been playing so much Left 4 Dead that when I'm quiet, I can vaguely hear a witch crying inside my head.

Larger post than normalll

Fri, 05 Jun 2009 23:55:34 GMT

I GOT THE JOB AT GAMESTOP! I know a lot of people say it sucks to work there, but I'm really happy. I have a nice manager (as far as I can tell), and I'm going to try really hard to provide better customer service than a lot of Gamestop employees I've heard about. Ooh, I can't wait for my first day. :D Anyway -

Check out what I found at Lee Lee's yesterday! I don't know, maybe you guys see them everywhere or something, but I had never seen one in person before. So, I bought one! Unfortunately I took a bite and lost my appetite for the rest of the day. Clearly Snake's taste for this grapefruit-margarine-almond-potato-milk-egg powder crap was swayed from eating raw animals.

Probably most of you have seen this already, but here's the best trailer for the SH1 reimagining I've seen:

I think it looks CREEPY AS HELL and I can't wait to play it. Apparently the SH fandom is ripping itself to shreds because half hates it to death and half is interested. I personally think all the crazy differences make it more interesting.

I have all the achievements for RE5 now, except for the War Hero one but uh, no :/

I'M DYYYYING

Wed, 03 Jun 2009 21:38:26 GMT

“Cadet Uhura.”

“Yes, Professor Spock?”

“I would like to request your presence at an event I fully intend to host in the immediate, foreseeable future. A prompt R.S.V.P. would be most appreciated.”

“Oh?”

“Indeed. It is to be a small celebratory gathering.”

“Oh, that sounds fantastic. Where are you planning on holding it?”

“Ah, that is—ahem—I intend to host this event within the confines of my regulation issued uniform slacks.”

“...wa...wait.”

(link)

Tue, 02 Jun 2009 19:48:48 GMT

Happy Zachary Quinto's birthday! He's 32! :O

Man, so I started liking Star Trek and was like "there's not a lot of fics this sucks" then I found the kink meme and WOW I'm drowning in it! Been reading for two days straight and I'm halfway through. Good times.

Fri, 29 May 2009 02:07:18 GMT

HEY

I got XBOX live and my gamertag is breadraptor. FRIEND ME :D especially if you have RE5 because that's the only game I have. YEAH

I also scored a job interview with Gamestop today, so I'm really happy I'll have a job again. Hopefully.

~~wow am I inactive or what~~

Fri, 15 May 2009 02:20:12 GMT

Hey! I have interesting things going on now!

I just took my AP world history exam. It was much easier than the practice exam my teacher gave us, so that was a relief. I dunno, I actually think I did alright, but I don't wanna jinx myself by being confident. Maybe I got a three, that would be awesome! After that, I'm so ready for school to be over. But we still have five days left. D: I'm going crazy.

Other thing: it's summer in Arizona and our community pool is under construction! WTF! I need to swim raradsgewhg.

Another thing: I'm hoping to get XBOX live soon, if I keep pestering father to get wireless interwebs. Anyone wanna give me their XBOX name so we can do stuff this summer? All I have for multiplayer so far is RE5 but that will change eventually. :D

Last thing: I love Metal Gear Solid 3. Why didn't I play it earlier? I like it even better than the first two. And I cried. ♥

Oh one more: quit at dairy queen, applied in other places. We'll see how that goes. :O

Thu, 07 May 2009 04:18:33 GMT

I'm being eaten alive by BUGGGGGGSSSSSSS!

Seriously. I don't think I've had this many weirdly positioned mosquito bites in my whole life. Elbow, wrist, stomach, top of each foot, heel, toe? Wtf!

Yes this is the only thing that has warranted an LJ post in a month.

Tue, 14 Apr 2009 04:42:09 GMT

I've been playing Call of Duty 4: Modern Warfare. Why is it fun? I don't get it, but I can't stop. :(

A gamestop near me is hiring, so I applied. From what I've heard they treat their workers poorly, but at least I'll be near what I love, right? And it won't be Dairy Queen. That's the big thing.

things

Sat, 04 Apr 2009 04:36:58 GMT

I kind of feel like roleplaying but I dunno where to go. I don't want someplace hugehuge :( I haven't RP'd in so long, I think I need to start out slow. But my Reno muse has been active lately, and I kind of want to RP Phoenix Wright sometime as well, out of curiosity.

Last time I tried Phoenix was at kingdom crack, and while that was a laugh I dunno how I'd do with him seriously. I'd still like to try out Kyle Hyde somewhere, but I'm really bad at those serious types.

I started a blog, it's http://www.yoshimyboy.blogspot.com . I'm Deadly Neurotoxin. It's kind of for piano and video game stuff. idk.

But yeah. Roleplay comm recommendations?

random

Wed, 25 Mar 2009 00:39:07 GMT

This is everything we've played in my orchestra this year! The rhapsody links let you play for free.

First:
Rounds For String Orchestra, Allegro molto vivace by David Diamond
Serenade In E Flat Major No. 6 - I: Andante con moto by Josef Suk

Second:
American Reel HOLY SHIT THAT'S MY ORCHESTRA I FOUND US ON YOUTUBE. I PLAY BASS DO YOU SEE ME? THEY DON'T REALLY SHOW ME.
Turtle Dove arranged by ? THIS IS ALSO US
Wassail Song I LOVE THE PERSON WHO UPLOADED THESE.

Third:
Carmen Suite No.1: Les Toréadors by Bizet
Karelina Suite: Alla Marcia by Jean Sibelius

Fourth:
Overture from Ruslan and Ludmilla by Glinka
The Phantom of the Opera

Tue, 24 Mar 2009 02:54:10 GMT

~my red XBOX came~!

first opinion of RE5: dislike. but we'll see if it gets any better. the game controls are pretty intuitive aside from my AI partner wandering off into a room and just standing there while I'm waiting for her to get in the damn elevator. I'm just not sure I like zombie games, aside from Dead Rising, which is awesome. I feel like RE takes itself too seriously. I mean, I've played Code Veronica before, but that seemed to have a better plot.

But I'm only on the first boss. (Just that it's being a terrible pain in the ass. Of course just when I'm learning to SHOOT AT IT AND IT'LL GO AWAY, they give me a boss that I have to lure into a fire room or someshit.)

Fri, 20 Mar 2009 05:39:01 GMT

Two posts in one day YEEEAHHH

I just bought the limited edition red XBOX + RE5 pack from amazon because I'm a dirty whore. Also bought Rule of Rose, that's cool. I earned all that money but I still feel kinda bad about spending it. I've been reading the book House of Leaves, anyone read it?

Why don't I get on AIM anymore? idk. it's been like 50 years.

no spoilers here

Thu, 19 Mar 2009 18:19:08 GMT

So! I just played Silent Hill: Homecoming after renting it for a few days. It's the first Silent Hill game I've played since I'm a huge pussy, but I finished it, so I'm very proud of myself. Well . . . finished it kind of. I couldn't beat the final boss because I went in ill-prepared D: Five rifle bullets and the knife was all I had on me, because I wasn't thinking this was the LAST boss. So I pumped all the final dudes full of ammo then went in all AW CRAP. I tried three times, but fighting it with a knife is so terribly boring :( so I watched the ending we would have gotten on youtube and called it a day. (this was after playing it for nine hours straight. gave me some weird dreams, I tell you.)

I'm really happy I've finally played a SH game, since I've read so goddamn much about them that I could probably write a novel without having played any of them (besides watching an LP of 0rigins). I liked Homecoming, though! Besides the sewers, they were terrible. I haven't heard many fan reviews besides on SA, but they all seemed pretty positive. I really grew attached to Alex throughout, even with his weird monkey faces.

Rented the new Prince of Persia, as well. It sucks. Pretty graphics, nice new tricks, but the snark makes me want to shove barbed wire in my skull. I hate the prince AND his stupid bitch that clings onto him like a whore even though she quite clearly has the same jumping-climbing skills that the prince does. Also I don't think it's right that a brand new game should still be able to pull the whole artificial-lengthening deal, making me go through a level once to get to the boss, then again to collect all the shiny things. Boring.

Wed, 11 Mar 2009 23:34:11 GMT

Whenever I'm discussing religion with anyone, I notice there's a vast difference between their reaction when I say "I don't have a religion" and when I say "I'm an atheist". They mean the same thing! And then afterward it always gets construed, like someone says "even if you believe in atheism..." ugh, it's not that at all. It's a lack of belief. Sometimes I feel like people take atheism to mean anti-God, which I don't think is necessarily correct. Just because I don't believe in God doesn't mean I don't respect your right to worship whomever you please. I just wish atheism didn't have such a negative connotation, when there are so many atheists that aren't stuck up, high-and-mighty people, like everyone seems to stereotype us as. I don't stereotype Christians or Mormons as all bible-thumpers, do I? (only mentioning those two because I've only really debated with people of those two religions). It would be nice to have the same respect.

Besides, whenever I get into a debate, for the most part, it's one-sided. I don't like insulting people, and atheist ideas are way more jarring to most people I talk to than Christian ideas. So, I let them talk to me and I listen. I love hearing about religion and what people believe - it's just when they start invading my right to choose to have no religion that I get upset. It's so uncomfortable when I feel like someone is trying to convert me. Can't we just have a conversation?

I'm really hyped up about things right now, and I could go on about more things that upset me now-a-days, but I think I'll stop there, lest I hurt any of my IRL friends. I'm just venting a little, not trying to sound uppity or rude. :/

EDIT: Oh yeah, man, it was so annoying. I was arguing with Collin today about whether Judaism is a religion as well as a race - he was telling me that you have to have a country to have a race. I strongly disagreed, because Caucasian people are from many different countries, etc. but he wouldn't listen. We texted Cha Cha twice and they backed me up - that it's genetic connections that make a race. So I show him the text like "See what I mean?" and he blustered for a while then was like "WELL HITLER WASN'T JEWISH". Wat. I just started at him. That man is a debating master

get down

Tue, 03 Mar 2009 23:25:41 GMT

lol

i thought of this in the shower today and did a snort laugh, so i decided to share. it's actually a glitch. can you imagine?

very scary doll

Tue, 03 Mar 2009 02:18:10 GMT

Me: *mumbling along to Coraline soundtrack*
Logan: Do you know what they're saying?
Me: No, it's Hungarian.
Logan: ... Is that a language?
Me: Yes.
Logan: Seriously?

I bought House of Leaves by Mark Z. Danielewski today on eBay. Anyone read it? I'm excited. It looks cool.

Working a closing shift tomorrow, even though it's a weekday. GO TEAM SIX HOURS OF SLEEP :( I hate life. Then this weekend I have to work Saturday and Sunday, 12-5. Blow me, Jaqueline. You know I don't wanna work that much. I got too much shit going on already. Ugh.

Sat, 21 Feb 2009 23:51:18 GMT

I GOT A CAR!!!

My grandpa bought one for me! :D It's a '95 Nissan Maxima and it's totally badass. Tinted windows, power steering/windows, airbags, huge trunk, TAPE DECK 8D I feel really spoiled and kind of guilty that I didn't buy my own first car, but it's a HUGE weight off my back. I'm so happy! Now I can go ~anywhere~.

In other news, today at the Matsuri I got myself a gyoza maker. I'mma make dessert gyozas with my crepe maker later x3;;

Thu, 19 Feb 2009 04:18:23 GMT

brb computer has aids :[

anyone know any free, good antivirus software? i got spybot search & destroy but it can't do much D:

on the plus side, this is the first time i've caught anything serious after . . . six years of careless downloading :3;

faythe and i are working on the LP still. my gamebridge skips on my laptop and lags really bad when i start recording, so we're gonna try it on her supercomputer. we need to buy a better mic since audacity can't adjust the volume of USB mics - aka, my singstar mic :/ i spent my whole half day messing with it. also need to wander around the house looking for an s-video plug, since i know we had one >:[

fanfics

Tue, 17 Feb 2009 02:07:24 GMT

i love the pit, lolz.

when you take a male main character and change him into a "smokin' hot" chick for the plot's sake, whatever. however, when you change his name for this role, you've just created a MARY SUE~

also, devil may cry/sonic the hedgehog crossover is probably the best thing i've ever heard of. "when dante and vergil end up in sonic's world its up to them and sonic's gang to save the world from a new menance"

In other news, I won a gamebridge for way less than I expected! I think it was fate. Anyway, it should arrive Wednesday or Thursday, and I'm so excited to make an LP! Faythe and I did a testrun of Shadow of Destiny yesterday, which I'm glad we did, 'cause I freakin' forgot everything about it since I played it a year ago.

any way the wind blows

Sat, 07 Feb 2009 18:46:01 GMT

I took my school driver's test today and passed :) Now i just need to go to the DMV and turn in the papers to get my license. I'm getting my hair cut today, too! Good day, yeeeah~
I saw Coraline yesterday. I can't recommend it enough, especially in 3D. I loved every bit of it. EVERYBITOFIT. If you're an IRL friend and are going to see it, TAKE ME WITH YOU AAH. :(

The soundtrack is very nice, as well. I had never heard of him before, apparently he's French? He did a good job. The movie was creepier than I expected it to be. I could hear a few kids crying in the theater, but thankfully it was relatively quiet. I think some parents were surprised. There's a part where this old lady with GIANTASS BOOBS is bouncing around with these little things barely covering her nips and I was like uh xD; I know that everyone's going to be comparing it to Alice in Wonderland, and while I can see the obvious similarities, try and think of it something on its own. I think that makes it a lot better!

Edit: Here's the soundtrack :) Thankyou to KevenG and Budarc on ffs.org.

a letter

Wed, 04 Feb 2009 00:16:35 GMT

Dear Mr. Math Teacher,

You are pretty good at teaching me algebra II. Last semester, I got an A in your class and I'm not very good at math, so I was happy! However, this semester isn't starting out so well. I got a D on the first test, then an A, then an F. This leaves me with a C overall, and that does not bode well. That's a pretty shitty grade. But that's not where my beef is with you.

Sir, you are a very partial teacher. It'll sound like an exaggeration when I say this, but I see how you act around students you enjoy and ones that you dislike. I can understand that, it's human. However. The students you enjoy are the ones that are smart. This means you're paying the most attention to the smart kids. Do you see where I'm going with this? It really isn't fair.

Last year I had a math teacher that was notoriously mean, but I'm finding you worse than him now. At least he would accept my questions and help me. On that last test, I missed every single question on the backside of the page. Landed like a 26 out of 60. What do I get from you? Nothing. No "see me at lunch", no "hey Nancy, I see you need help with this"? Okay, okay. I know it's not your job to chase me around and force me to learn.

But even when I came in at lunch today your attitude toward me was cold and impatient. I started with a friendly, "Hey, I saw my test grade and I figured I'd come in here to get help understanding the homework because of it, heh." That's incentive, is it not? That's me telling you, "please freaking help me". You simply tell me to sign in, so I do, and I sit down.

I told myself this time that I wasn't going to be afraid. You always manage to ridicule me when I ask a "dumb" question, to the point where I ask the people around me in class when I don't understand rather than you. This leads me to wrong information. This is not a good teaching skill! Every time I ask a question, I do not want you to begin with "it's simple." Every time I ask a question, I do not want a heavy sigh or an incredulous laugh in response. I want clarity.

So today, I set it all out for you, said I was going to do the steps and see where I go wrong. I'm barely halfway through explaining when you start inching away, to the point where I had to tell you, "Wait, I'm not finished!" This is not cool! You made me feel rushed and even more stupid, because whenever I clarified anything I'd get a "Yes, of course" type answer.

I have never been good at simplifying under radicals, cube roots, those type things. Ever. I don't care if that makes me a stupid student to you, one that you don't care to speak with. For God's sake, you told the class you had a hard time grasping subtraction when you were in junior high.

Not to mention those terrible emails you send to our parents saying that if your child has a certain ranking or lower in the class, they should drop. That is horrible. You don't think people can start low and succeed high? Your lack of faith really hurts me. Thanks a lot for that.

Yours,
Nancy